I was 48 years old when I was diagnosed with Multiply Myeloma IgA Kappa and given three to five years to live. I am now nearing 65.
I still work full time. When my cancer disappeared in the year 2000, it mystified my Oncologist, and for 10 years I was completely cancer free. My faith in this outcome was absolute, I had no time for cancer and my body responded in line with my belief.
Early in 2010 my cancer returned, but one year later, it was gone again.
In August 2013 I had Pleurisy, my pains were horrific, at one point I collapsed in the hospital and was taken for x-rays and tests. It was then that I found that MM had bitten me for the third time, this time severely. I was told my spine was collapsing and I needed urgent radiotherapy. I didn't have time to think, and went along with my consultants advice. I believe that was a mistake on my part, because it hurt me even more. I didn't have a chance to gather my thoughts together to turn it around myself until the treatment was over. Following radiotherapy I was told I needed chemo, and a targeted therapy was ordered. By then I had had time to think and refused it. I have refused it ever since. Following my last blood test, my Oncologist has suggested that, maybe I do not need chemotherapy. Bingo!! I still have the damage to my spine, but am working on it.
There are lessons to be learned here, and this post is to share what I have learned with you. Many will find what I say difficult, I make no apologies for that, those who need to know will find their way here. This is how the Universe works, whether you believe it or not.
Illness is imbalance; it comes with an absence of joy in our lives. Think about that and how it might pertain to your condition. This has been reinforced to me because, my cancer fired up after 2 divorces and when I was at low points in my life and allowed it to enter.
We have two voices in our heads. We all have our own 'sense of self,' this happens when we are young and begin to develop our own opinions, this is called 'The Ego.' The second voice is so much quieter and is usually drowned out by the ego. The ego will not help you if you have cancer; it will be damaging to your health. This, in my opinion, is often why so many people die of cancer. It is important to know what the voices represent. The ego is loud, opinionated and negative, it knows fear and always works from that perspective. Our second voice is divine, it is who we really are, it is our higher self. We associate and believe in our ego, but the one thing to remember is, the ego dies with our body and is no more. Your spirit, or higher self, is the real you, it does not associate with ego, you could equate it as our higher mind, and our ego as our lower mind. Our lower minds are responsible for the darkness in this world that turns man against man. In this, the quiet voice is never heard and we hurt ourselves on this earth, but never in the next dimension. The higher mind comes here to play and returns to source when the play is over.
When you have MM, it will take your life if you do not take control. The lower mind is weak, the ego is fearful, the negativity and lack of self belief conditions the body to grow MM to a point that the body can no longer hold the spirit and it returns to the source. We call that Heaven. This is an absolute for me, because I have been there in a NDE (Near Death Experience) There, I learned, as so many others have, there is only love. We come to this earth, we forget who we really are and live a life we believe is all we have. That is, unless we begin dialogue with, and listen our higher mind, that speaks to us in feelings and not words. In the next world we do not need words. The lower mind cannot heal cancer, the lower mind will keep you awake worrying, it will drag you down. The higher self does not know pain or fear, it observes the laws of the spirit, love and light and has no limitations. Cancer is no problem to love and light and when we bring the light to our cancer, the cancer has no chance of survival. When the mind is right, the body listens, mind is the master, the body is the servant. The body is only a vessel for our higher self to interact in our physical world between birth and death, beyond that it has no meaning, at all. You can obstruct your higher mind, but you can never lose it. When you open and believe in who you really are, your creative self will bring light to where there is darkness, joy and love to your pain, because, where there is joy and love, there is no cancer. This is the lesson I have finally learned and I will stop punishing myself.
I have always said, in my blogs, know who you are, because everything begins there, healing will not occur unless you can separate who you are from what you are not. We all have the power to create healing, or not, we usually create not, because we are not taught to believe in ourselves. We are taught a vengeful God, we are taught, only doctors can heal you and we believe it, and if you believe it, you will never know God while you are human, and you will rarely heal cancer yourself.
I have seven billion brothers and sisters on this planet, we are all part of the consciousness we call God. Nothing we do here can hurt who we are. Our error is not knowing who we are, because, if we did, we would have no more fighting and wars, religion would be, for the people, we would love our Mother World, the animals, the plants and live for each other. Evil, that is only in the minds of people would become the exception rather than the rule.
It is my sacred duty to bring all I have learned to those who will listen. It does not matter if you do or do not. Those who find their way here might find some synchronicity involved. Enlightenment begins when you begin to make the right choices. Healing happens when you make the connection and believe in who you really are.
David
Here is a poem That I wrote a while ago. I hope you enjoy its message. Feel free to share but put my name to it.
INNER PRESENCE
Only on stillness
In quietness of mind
I sense it
It calls to me
From a place
My mind cannot enter
It cannot be seen
It can only be felt
The eternal presence
Of divine love
Patiently waiting
And behind each sacred life
It is the knowing
Our multi-dimensional perfection
Of unity and love
And beneath all the anguish
Our perception of separation
All our mind games
Our treadmill of life
One thing is sure
It eternally exists
It simply is, was
And will ever be
We should ever remember
As we journey through this life
When we sever the connection
With whom we think we are
It will be silently waiting
Ageless and timeless
To welcome us home
DMT
