I would just like to say thank you to the many thousands of you who have visited my blog about my journey with Multiple Myeloma. It is now 18 years since my original diagnosis, I am 66 years old and work full time in a job that I love, it is my Company and I do administration and also some of the physical, hard work. Currently I am well and fit for my age, despite multiple myeloma that sometimes bites me, but I always bite back. MM I suppose is travelling with me, but I give it little thought and certainly, it does not generate any fear in my thinking. My Consultant Physician tells me with some surprise in his voice that I am asymptomatic... Eh, I said, what's that mean? He tells me that, although I have MM I do not display any of the symptoms or pain normally associated with this disease. He he I responded, then I must be doing something right that you do not understand. How can he, his whole career revolves around cut, burn and poison! It is sad really that medicine has no idea of who we are beyond their thinking that the human body is a really clever physical machine. That is not my thinking at all. Some interesting facts are maybe necessary at this point.
The human body is made up of cells, some of these cells are our own but about 40% of them are bacterial cells that we carry as passengers. A cell is made up of atoms, which are the building blocks of everything in us, our world and our universe. Each cell is composed of 100 trillion atoms and it is estimated that the human body is comprised of 60 to 100 trillion cells. Cells differ in size but as a generalisation it will suffice for my point. Here is the kicker... An atom is 99.9999999999999% empty space. The nucleus of each atom contains all the mass, and is surrounded by orbiting electrons. Between the electrons and the nucleus there is nothing but empty space. To give some perspective on this; if the nucleus of the atom was the size of your thumb nail, the orbiting electrons would be a quarter of a mile away. Years ago this made me think and I concluded that if the atoms that make up our cells and the cells that make up our bodies follow that huge percentage of emptiness, what are we. Over 99% of our bodies are comprised of just six elements, the largest is Oxygen at 65%, Carbon at 18.6%, Hydrogen at 9.7, Nitrogen at 8.2%, Calcium at 1.8%, Phosphorous at 1.0%, beyond which are many trace elements. Sorry about the factoids but they are important. Look in the mirror, what do you see, you don't see Oxygen and you don't see hydrogen but the two make water but water is 75% of you. What looks back at you is more than just chemical elements, but as the atom is, so you are 99.9999999999999 empty space. Scientifically the total amount of mass in the human body is so small that you would need a microscope to see it. Interestingly, and also a scientific fact, if you took all the physical matter from 7 billion people on this world, you would get a mass the size of a sugar lump. It is said that we are empty people living on an empty world in an empty universe. (physically)
We are not just clever machines, something makes this whole thing work and that something is not of this world, this is my conclusion. We exist, we think, we look solid, we create, we love, we hate and live from birth to death and never try to understand who and what we are and more importantly, where we came from. The greatest human mystery of all time, and something I have been keen to discover all my life. Our mass of chemical elements work in a beautiful symbiosis following the blueprint of our own personal DNA profile. This profile is very similar to the profile of every living creature on this planet and the final base pairs define us a humans. We, in turn have the capacity to create and this is not given to any other living creature. This is how we have created our technology from a world we inhabit that was once grass and trees. There is something special about us, we operate with bio-electric energy, this energy is conscious and aware, it exists on more than one level. The level we know is the mind and the mind is all encompassing and has little time for anything that does not exist in the past or our futures. I have learned that the bit we always miss is the moment of now, because everything happens in the moment of now. The future is possibility, the past is gone, neither have any relevance, especially if we are struck with an incurable illness. What I know has kept me alive for 18 years and will continue to do so. Beneath the mind we have a belief system, this system carries powerful energy, what we believe comes true, although there are limitations to this, we can believe we will win the lottery, but beneath that we know that the odds are not in our favour and we never do. I believe I will not die of cancer, this is a deep belief and kept me cancer free for many years until my consultant negatively affected my belief. He is no longer my consultant. I am human and do suffer from mind traits, one of which was a deep depression that allowed my cancer to morph and bite me. It was a bad time and it has taken me a while to reconnect with my belief and am now on the road to beating mm down once more. I will do this.
Let me just explain that the energy element that is who we are exists on several levels, the greater part of who we are we call the soul, we are an aspect of that soul and this greater part is never born to this world, instead, a small portion of it is born here as me and you. The soul journeys with us as it is part of us and is indestructible as we are. The soul is immensely powerful and we have a small part of that power, the power to live, love and create. We can create our heaven on earth or our hell on earth, this is our choice and our soul will not intervene. It actually talks to us, not in words, but in feelings, we call it our sixth sense. I believe that mm is an energy, it has no mass but as an energy it can interact with our cells and damage our DNA, in the most part, taking us to death. Energy can never be created or destroyed and the energy in us, our world and our universe exists to the same degree as it always has done, neither increasing or decreasing. However, it can be transformed but never losing or gaining. When we have a physical injury, we heal, we can smash our bodies and we heal, we know this and we believe it, our mind never believe we will not heal. This is deep belief which has great power. When we have cancer or another serious illness we immediately believe we are going to die, or doctors might say that we may have six months to live. To our belief system we have just been given the sentence of death. Cancer treatment is indiscriminate poison, it treats symptoms and not cause and damages our capacity to heal, many people die of the treatment and not the cancer. I will take chemo but as an aid to the symptoms while I attack the cause by opening my toolbox of faith and connection with my higher self, (soul) not through fear and loathing of my cancer but through love and positivity, never fearing the cancer, and seeing my future me, many years ahead and utilising the unconditional love and energy of my soul to effect a transformation of the energy of my cancer using my heart connection (not mind) to my soul.
There is much information on the internet about self healing and connection to soul to effect healing, many people look upon this as woo woo, doctors know nothing of it and continue to cut, poison and burn because it is all they have in their toolbox. We, on the other hand, can create our heaven or our hell as we journey into cancer, what we believe will define our lives to continue or not, we decide because we create it.
I know this is a long blog and there is much to take in. For many it is a step too far, it works for me.
It is said that there are many roads up the mountain, but we all end up in the same place, eventually. We exist now in the fourth dimension but have part of us in invisible realms because we are consciousness; invisible energy, we, as humans exist on this world, being a small aspect of our soul clothed in physical matter. when we die an our consciousness moves out of our body, we return to or souls enlightened by our physical experience and our bodies liquefy and return to the earth where it all once belonged. To die is certainly not the worst thing that can happen to us, the worst thing is not knowing who we are.
