It is September 2017; changes are happening in my life this year, not just with the myeloma, but in my personal life as well. I have been in business now for 43 years and through the ups and downs of myeloma I have worked. Work kept me focused and stopped me feeling sorry for myself. This year I decided to retire; this is a decision that was a long time in the making. In my 'human design' this is the story of my life, decision making is not a rapid process. It takes me a long time to work things out, but as a projector and a triple split, when the decision is made it is done. When I get something in my mind whether it be in decision making or in learning I really have it worked out and it is right for me. It has not failed me so far in my life. I have a powerful survival instinct and when something feels right, it is right. Human Design is worth looking up. At 67 I am ready for a new direction.
Myeloma is not something I fear, it never has been if you look back on my posts. It took me most of my life to work out what life is all about, where we come from and where we go when we die. My life experiences confirm my beliefs and I have no fear of death or cancer. After 19 years with mm I am a bit of an enigma to my doctors.
My latest results... Para-protein (my original cancer) has not returned and is too small to count. Kappa light chains are in the normal range and my blood bio-chemical profile is completely normal. I have no pains and no symptoms of multiple myeloma. 8 years ago I dropped my guard, doubted my beliefs and suffered depression. 3 years ago I could hardly walk, my spine was collapsing, I was so ill, and this was the result of wrong thinking, erosion of my beliefs (which I have written a blog about) this cancer morphed and bit me hard. I took treatment to knock it back but did things to reduce their effects and made it all work for me. I had succumbed to depression and allowed it in and it almost destroyed me, but I got on top of it all. Tough lesson but I learned. The one thing I did not lose my belief in was that my pra-protein would not return and to date, it has not. My consultant had thrown me a curved ball, telling me in 2009 that my cancer would return, it threw me into doubt and allowed Kappa light chains to surface. That consultant is history.
One of the hardest things to achieve in this world is to look beyond our conditioning which is drilled into our minds from an early age. Religion, history, science, ways of living, doctors and medicine. The list is endless. We believe our learning of the place we are born and generally do not question what we have learned and who we are told we are. None of us are encouraged to look 'outside the box'. Those who do are subject to ridicule. Strong beliefs make other people of differing beliefs wrong! This simple statement has killed billions of people over the centuries and even in this 'modern' world, is still doing it. The modern world has just given us more sophisticated ways to kill in the name of belief. What if every person on this planet was a brother or sister? We are not supposed to know this but it is true. Conditioning is control for the 1%, think about it, we are led like we are sheep and most allow it ; I am not that way. I am not frightened to put my head above the parapet.
I am not a victim of my conditioning! If I was, I would probably not have survived the attack of Multiple Myeloma. Matter is a product of energy, we are energy, cancer is energy. Our minds direct energy in thought and body functional control. It is said...When the mind is right, the body is right. This is partially correct, deeper than the mind we find our beliefs, our beliefs are a product of conditioning. (When you are ill, you go to the doctor, cancer kills, if the doctor cannot heal you, you will not get better, etc etc) Beliefs can kill or cure. Our bodies are bio-electric energy, the body you see is vibrating energy, 99.9999999999993% empty space, although it looks solid, according to science it is certainly not. This may change your belief in what you are...there is so much more I have learned. Who you are is a completely different ball game, where you came from and where you go when you die is mind blowing. Question everything, that's my motto.
Peace and love
David
