BELIEF AND KNOWING.

I am David, survivor of Multiple Myeloma, a terminal cancer with no hope and no medical cure.
Faith and true knowing is not something we find easily because we can be so negative in our thinking. We are taught to worship God in the form of what culture we were born to in the world. We generally take on the beliefs of our parents and caregivers who teach us the 'art of living'. This does not help us when we are facing our demise because of terminal illness. Our thoughts bounce around fear and futility and whilst we may feel positive and outwardly strong, deep down we are shaking with fear.
Where is our God when we are alone, in pain, or in bed at 3am in the morning facing death by illness and cancer. Believe me, early morning is a very 'alone' time when we feel helpless. Everyone is asleep and we are alone with our negative thinking, tossing and turning, fearing the worst. We pray but find little hope in that. Where is the power of prayer if we don't really believe what we are doing. Prayer is really powerful if it comes from the heart.

I have learned that we are never alone; I have my own proof that God never existed outside of us and that it is simply the awesome consciousness to which we are all connected and an eternal part of who we are. The power of that connection to affect all aspects of our lives is open to us all, yet few touch this connection. Those who awaken to its possibility find that belief and knowing.